So this is my first ever NN submission, after following the blog for a while. There was no theme this week, but this picture is themed all the same. Sort of.
The theme is recovery. Or maybe beauty. Change. Development. I’m not sure anymore, after doing this. So I’ll just tell you the story.
The photo of the left of this image was taken a little over a year ago. It was taken three months into my recovery from an eating disorder, and four months into my first real, serious attempt at recovery from self injury [which I had been doing actively for over ten years.]
The one on the right is me, today. Plus some tattoos. Plus about 7lbs [a lot on a girl who’s only 4’10”], even if most of it is in my thighs, and with the help of laser and dermarolling, minus the appearance of a lot of scars. I’m not the best, but I am better, and constantly getting better than I am now.
You might not see all that much different in these photos, but I do. I know that me on the left is sad and unhappy and feels fat all the time and has such awful guilt from eating and doesn’t believe the guy she’s sleeping with is really very attracted to her.
Me on the right is now in a great relationship with the guy mentioned above and she feels good in her own skin for the most part and even eats what she wants to eat most of the time, in moderation. More than that, she feels sexy and has gained that part of her life back fully.
Take these photos as you will. I’d love you to tell me what you think they mean. Or what they mean to you.
Well dear, I can’t remember it happening before and I’m sure it’s because I had an emotional morning but your submission brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for sharing dear and I hope this inspired many more submissions. I really can’t express how heart warming and endearing these honest and beautiful portraits are, thank you for the write up as well I really can’t express how touching this is.